today is d 2nd Sunday i've been here in sandakan...n i dono where's d church to go..so i've been thinking wat would be for the coming 27 Sunday...huhuhu??

a reminder to myself..
the Bible says...
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."
Matthew 7;7-8.

this song keep playing in my head n i'd really like to share His love through this song

I a.m B.A.D!!
for 10000000......th time...i act like a damn-ass fool!!


Guardian angle: rose...how many times i hv to tell u??!! control urself!! open ur heart, ur ear & use ur brain when u're angry!! dont just act like a damn-ass...acting like a fool!!
Rose: i think i left my brain somewhere....i cant find it.
Guardian angle: WTF?? then go n hang urself....
Rose: most of d time i wonder if u really a guardian angle!! wat r u really?


of coz!! everything we planned b4...was just a dream..but wake up! this IS life...prepare for the worst all d time n dis time is d best example of how worst thing could go wrong uncontrollably. maybe this is how we'll learn bout life..life IS unexpected..life IS full of surprises. sometimes life is happy n sometime life is hell (like now). BUT!! i believe there's something bigger n extravaganza await us in our way ahead.

....so my lovely friends, alynn, edith, nurul, siti and chalen...let us continue this way wif opened heart and mind..we should believe that this suffering will end wif happiness dat we cant never imagine how great it may be. it just needs a little faith n patient. let us HOPE..we'll be better in time.

My apology....

to all my bestest friends...
_i'm sorry for being mad n acted like a totally-damn-ass-fool.
_i'm sorry that we can't be housemates. i hope we'll be someday.
_i'm sorry we can't cook together but i hope we can eat together always.
_i'm sorry if in the future we'll not be together always bcos our postings r different.
_I'M SORRY....for d wrong things i've done.


My appreciation....

_to GOD...for giving me chance to experience this life.. Lord Father n Jesus, guide me to Your way, to Your Truth. Thank You LORD for Your Everlasting LOVE. Show me how to be strong and be faithful and be thankful for these are your loves poured on me.
_to my parents n family...i will be fine..don't worry for u all r my strength.
_to all my friends...i love u all..this is just temporary..it'll end soon. let's focus on our postings.
_to nurul..i'm not worried because i still have a friend like u really close to me.
_to the world..I'm not suffering..i'm stronger & tougher more than u can ever imagine!!


that's all for now..& hello world! I WILL SURVIVE!!

love,
~rose~

ONCE YOU STARTED..IT WILL BE EASIER...

huuhhhh.....*sigh*....it's very hard to make the first step..hard...as hard as rock..as hard as diamond!! But..is diamond hard? ok..make it simple..it's hard to start but once it started, once i put my heart on it...everything comes smoothly..naturally!! HUHU...if there's a key to start d engine every time i want to make a start..kan best?!! But! If that happen then i'll be to most uncivilized person in the whole universe! U damn rose! be more enthusiastic in things u do!! See..ur PuPuK report finished od..u just need to be more determined n yeah...enjoy it..it can be fun if you see it through a different lens, different perception.


ONE more thing...why it's hard to keep the stamina on top level while it still in the middle of battlefield??
B'COS...u dont put your whole heart on it, Rose.... U know..i think everything in this world should be done sincerely so that the things u do be more valuable n u'll appreciate it more.


last day in kota kinabalu.....

today..friday 9th July...is the last day in here, kk before moving to sandakan tomorrow..huuh..so many thing to do la mo berpindah-randah ni....send car for shipping..packing things up..ambik rice cooker dari makcik gumuk..i think i'd given her much chance to use my rice cooker freely..it almost a year!! kalu btagar suda..sy suru dia ganti.. haha..xpa nurul tlg ambik utk sy ble? i'm sick of her od, yesterday she spited right to my face just because i wore sluar pindik..hehe..wat? just wanna be on-fashion-track ba. not me alone..edith oso! hm..just remember, too many things la happened yesterday. i call it "the lost day". u have no idea how we sesat in inanam in the morning just to find d perodua service centre..then i d afternoon..me n leena sesat lg just to find d place to send our car for shipping..inanam the cursed road..haha..da la too many cars on d road..i'm sick of the honks blown for me n my jaybumie..i know la we're hot but no need to emphasize it..
ok..i wanna talk bout yesterday more...after we sent our car for service (we were waiting like hell there..it took very looonnggg!!)..we promised kak ar to go to 1B for another shopping shot bcos kak ar not satisfied wif d wat she oredi have now..hahaha..no la..just joking. but the prob is d time was so limited as we need to send the car by 3pm later. so i was kinda act irritably and irrationally(?) telling that we need to hurry up bcause i haven't packed my stuffs n bla bla bla... then i realize may be i was too harsh n i feel like kak ar was trsinggung (kot? muka dia masam nak mampus!)..my bad! that's me..saying without thinking!! I guess to many people hurt bcos of this bad habit of mine...alynn_bcos i left the keys in my room n i bluntly told her that's her fault cos i was distracted by her sms...actually i'm d 1 at fault, i hv concentration problem(?)..no i'm not!!..i'm sorry buddies...u can call me a bad gurl..i am bad. Anyway...back to the story..soon after that i saw adila n d gang in 1B oso..so i felt a bit relieved..nani was still there so no need to worry to much bout d afternun nnt.. sorry kak ar.. but honestly..u talk too much and it annoys me sometimes..shut up a bit!

ok...we'll be there in sandakan until january next year.. it will be very long b4 we going back to kk... i feel sad actually..so sad..last wednesday when i went back to kk from home in kudat..i cried alone in the car...so sad to leave my family..it's farther from kudat to sandakan than kudat-kk...T_T..omma..appa..nae dongsaeng...i'll be missing u all ssooo mucchhh!!!
another one...mr. 재. (another jay ok..not my car)...i'll be missing dat person too. T_T. d last time i met dat person was more than 2 months ago..i miss dat person oredi..huhuhu..will there be chance to meet him again.?? only God knows. T_T...ok..enuf bout that person.

hm...today's plan...hand in Pupuk report..n joli!!haha...wanna watch movie n makan n all dat we can do...wish us luck n prosperity(?)...till den..see ya!



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