when u get a sudden wake-up call..most of the time it became an important moment in ur life as it's when the turning point in ur life occur. i'm technically aware of my need of one significant, life changing wake-up call that i must receive to get my life be on the track that i used to walk on. i'm lacking here and there, i'm well aware of it and i'm still unmotivated to make a change. i want to be more motivated in my study..more focused in doing the best that i can. but i can't!!!! why??!! 

those people around me must be laughing at me of what i had become now..no more a smart, motivated, dedicated and all the good things...bla bla bla... their heads must have become as big as it can be and i'll be under their feet! what the hell am i thinking!..this is not i should be thinking about..

O Lord..i need to change my life, the way i'm living it. i gotta find motivations before it's too late!!

i need a wake-up call!