1 months ++ in paeds

ok...been no blogging for sometimes...well not really blogging i would call it..more like writing diary. LOL..read my previous entries..lawak n embarrassing pun ada..feel so stupid pun ada. can't stop looking for grammatical errors...and like..'oh..dis is how i felt dat time..so stupid!' 

ok..life been upside down inside out left right north south west east..like usual..no different. Happy? yes happy.. : )

not so glad to say i passed surgery posting..bcos i dun feel like i'm good enuf wen leave the posting. the last few days there i still feel like..my gosh..wat did i learn from there? ok lah..boleh lah.. No! i cannot aim for boleh lah..my job is a serious matter..i better be better than wat i am now... 
started Paeds posting on 9th Jan..will end on 8th May..hopefully..on time..*fingers cross* 
HUH!!! really super big humungus nasty filthy gross dislike this posting! my least fav posting wen i was in med school was paeds.. i found it hard...bcos d people who works in paeds are not so appealing.. Lol..appealing? dats d word? no lah...more like too strict..too organized..too many rules..too controlling...too conservative..no fun..no enjoy... i dun enjoy myself waking up early in the morning..going to hospital..start working.. really unmotivated..especially d first few weeks in d dept. unlike during surgery posting time.. but..actually this is nothing to compare wif probably my next posting.. ObsGyn..the toughest posting..the people are so malignant..deadly malignant! ok..i'll be a dead meat! so..telling myself..u will be thankful of wat u r going through now..bcos later it will be more deadly.. 

New 'Block System' in Paeds! 3 blocks..Melur 1, Melur 2 n NICU.. will be spending quality time in Melur 1 for d whole coming month..which is 'great!'..ok..enuf wif d cursing...lets just work like robot..or zombie... No off day for d whole March!! F***ing insane! huh!! xtw mw cakap apa lg..sudah lah...keja ja la..fikir ja d end of d month i'll be paid 5k for dis..ok..fine..just work..sakit hati..sakit otak ja to think abt it.. got to sacrifice time to spend wif my family, my ajushi, my friends, my free time... sad!! all gone.. depressed o macam ni..so depressed..! sakit otak..pening kepala.. cant say anything..told ya..paeds ppl r cruel people..
adoi...suddenly my mood gone down..mw tidur lah...panat otak..before i break down further..i shud go sleep now..better sleep 
till next entry...huh!! suddenly popped in my head.. NRP exam, Theory exam, CEX exam, log book..all these r d source of depression. nak nangis~~ sob sob~~ tomorrow..work again...sad..


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