do anyone had ever had this...? The feeling like losing control...losing the focus to work and study...study performance became worst...not motivated..feeling worthless n helpless... Hm..i sound like i have some kind of depression or mental problem...omg..but i do feel stressed...for a long time and d cycle of being happy-stressed-sad-blanked is keep repeating for a long time that i notice it now.
I realize dat evertime i write something in dis blog it's all about unmotivated, sad, stressed...bla3... What dafuq have i done? Am I seeking attention? Whats wrong with me?? What am i now??
Stop!! I need to stop!!
Maybe i need some help... Yes i do need help... I need advices..guidance...
Maybe i should get involved in the church more actively.... I need some peace in mind too... I need to find the way i was once before...
This is not for attention...but i'll be thankful if someone would read... Bcos losing yourself is painful...worse wen you realize that you r in the middle of losing youself n nothing is done to save it.. I dont know if the word losing is really suited me well..but thats the best description of wat i feel now.. I dont want to be lost in nothingness...i want to be something meaningful...