Finally he said it...to stop hoping for him.. I get it. It's okay...it's still another level of sadness but I am relieved. God bless you my dear ajushii.. Goodbye.

Building up the strength to move on from the one who no longer care. I had done thousands of damages to you. Yet, now all I want to do now is to mend the wrecks I made but instead I'm loosing you further. I wish I could talk to you like a friend. I know you want us to stay as friend. But part of me is so egoistic and wanted more than what it should be. As a result I pushed you too far and I can't reach you easily. I don't mind being in the friend zone as long as I can know that you are always in a good shape.

I know you are tired of this. So wordy..so emotional..so crappy. But to you the only person that I can show the bad parts of me that I can't do to anybody else. I got no secret to hide from you. I truly regret all the things that I did.
All my life I wish I could see you again. May God allows...

In the meantime.. I'm building this strength to carry on without you in my life. I really hope to see you again dear... I am praying hard to see you again..even if it is on ur wedding day..I won't mind.

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