roses.are.red: Yet To Figure Out..

Yet To Figure Out..

Hi~... (awkward greeting..)

It has been more than a year since i last wrote an entry here.. oh my..what happen in between. Well, the main reason probably because i don't have laptop of my own since the last incident which i accidentally poured hot horlicks drink on my laptop...haha...

But never mind..i got myself a new one..ASUS A550LC with intel core i5-4200U processor.. oh..how come i know dat?? LOL. Anyway, that means..i can write more after dis..hopefully..

I AM NOW A DOCTOR!!

Finally i graduated!! I got a Medical Doctor Degree..oh my God! I wasted 5 years of my life in medical school..and finally..i survived it I am a survivor~~. Started working in September this year as a houseman in Surgical Department, Queen Elizabeth II Hospital, Kota Kinabalu. At first I thought it was a relief to have Surgery as first posting but it turns out tougher than what i think..but according to sources it was easier before my batch came in. So many people get extended in here! Some for ridiculous reasons..i dono..i dont feel safe to say anything here too. My end of posting will be on 8th January 2014..the day before my birthday. I really hope i can pass the exam although i love surgery so much..it's time to leave. Had done written exam, clinical exam most probably next week, and my presentation on PUD, PGU and gastric Ca will be next week also.

FIRST SALARY..n the second..

Working with government..it's normal when your paycheck delayed for 2-3 months..i got mine after 3 months! Sept-Nov salaries came at once...and it was a lot for me but it all gone now.. Oh My~~ I still dont know how to handle money. I bought a new phone 1.7k, a new laptop 2.1k, a washing machine0.55k, 6K for my parents n siblings..and grandparents as well. And the rest..i wasted on expensive foods..i haven't shop much on clothings, shoes and other girls thing. Oh no..of course i still have some from the previous gaji but not that much. December's gaji...i should keep it..because i'm planning to buy a house..or at least rent a house. I got other commitment here in kampung..to help my dad to build a new house here. AArrgghh...why money always make people go crazy?

2013--->2014

Hm..what are the big events in 2013?? Hmm..nothing that i remember. haha...

But when I look at my previous entries seems like i wrote some about my ex, my crush n bla bla bla...

i wrote about how stressful i was living a medical student life n dat i thought i never meant to be a doctor..

i wrote about my family crisis..bla bla bla..

oh please~~ i was so....i dont know how to describe the old me...

Old me? have i changed?

So far..i got this crush on 1 guy..a friend of a friend...first met him mid of this year..crush at first sight..i mean..i never feel sparks like how i felt dat time..or it was just an attraction..oh no! we kept in touch until now..but i can feel like he's saying he's not ready..for another heartbreak..wat?? i like u man..i'm not gonna break your heart..maybe it's u who's going to break mine~ oh will...u r so..i rasa mcm geram ja...

And...something else is going on here that i yet to figure out.. Let's just let it be for this moment. Wait and see where it leads to...clueless now...but my heart say just go with it...ok..i dun expect much now..i dono yet later..

For now, I'll just focus on my job..my money-handling learning process (?), and oh no!! i just remember!! My since-childhood/teenager life plans..OMG.. but i think i never write about this before..

Actually..since i was younger..much younger..my life plan was quite simple..got job a.s.a.p after uni..(checked), then...get married at 25 and have my first baby at 27..and some kids after dat...and live happily ever after! OMG..sound so stupid..more stupid that i still haven't found the one!! I'm going 25 in about 2 weeks..means that dat part is already gone..Good bye my teenage dream..i won't be able to fullfil u..haiya..suddenly so stressed out..

Okay lah~~ enough for now...stressed out od..

Will write again in a while...

Bye for now~~

roses.are.red

Yet To Figure Out..

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