i blink..then open my eyes again..then blink again..then close again..n then i realized today is Thursday.!! AArrggghhhh~~~ that mean tonight is my last night here in my home-sweet-home in pinawantai, kudat. ooo no~! i can't take this..i wish there will be more cuti..but what can i do..this is what so-called a "sacrifice"..this is some of the thing that have to be given up for my better future..(i hope so..amen). i've been doing this for 2 years++ od and so..by now i should be used to this. But..u know..families are families..they are people that i love so much..so by any mean it still so hard to live far from them. i suddenly remember my friend who are farther..so much farther from their family than me..i guess they bear a lot more hardships emotionally than i do..i should at least be thankful that me and my family are still on the same land...land below the wind...hihi~...

Guardian angel: Don't worry Rose..we still have each other. u&me..me&u~~

Rose: What?? Who are u? Do I know u? Do we know each other?

Guardian angel: I'm ur guardian angel...u r the one u created long time ago...how come u forgot about me!!!

Rose: oow..did i....created u?? ok anyway..these are some msg for my friends..

hm..as today was my second last day here in north of sabah...i went to pekan kudat today with my little sister..hm..nothing much..just wandering around "checking" any changes happen in kudat..and based on my observation..Nothing had changed! thing are still the same.. oww...actually got one..KFC in kudat had been upgraded od...the place move to other site od..now it beside the Love Kun shop..dat site used to be a small accessory shop which also sold waffles n on the other side there was a counter for paying electric bills.. .n some more d restaurant now is double-storeyed.....huhu..i guess it's really surprising.. -_-"....

we actually planning to "see" the library...(to see only ya~~) but it was still closed for raya season...because my sister haven't been there so i was planning to go there la..but so disappointed..this is "this country" i guess...always fair n square...is it really.?? i guess this year I don't even have chance to go home during Christmas...it'll be on Saturday actually..but my Friday and the next Monday will be school day.. never mind...God is there in every place on this world..no matter where on earth, God makes our heart close to each other.

ok...back to the story...we spent only few hours in Kudat before heading back home...some early-lunch in Pasar Gantung there..ate mee sup campur with kitchai ping..(it's cheap here)..bought 3 t-shirts of same kind..only the colours are different...then stop by in Sikuati..buy some veggies and here i meet some of our 4th year seniors who are currently posted in Kudat Hospital..i don'k know their names..i know only Bakri n he said...district posting is great..Kudat is great..yeah it is..

hm...we arrived at home in the afternoon...n in the morning before i happened to know that nurul also going to Kudat today..but unluckily i can't meet her..mianhae, nurul....

i said it od..i'm heading to KK tomorrow..perhaps after lunch..then meet my friends in 1B..we'll be karaoke-ing n all d things we can't do in Sandakan...we'll enjoy ourselves later....but still...my heart is aching bcos i'll be leaving home...oww Rose..don't be sad..don't cry...

16th September....is Malaysia Day..thank God for this peaceful country...may this will be forever and may 1Malaysia will not be only a meaningless word...

the Malaysia Day Celebration has just ended...well..the live broadcast by TV1 i mean...I didn't go there..kat TV kan ada jg~~

Happy Malaysia Day everyone......

 

i won't pack my stuffs tonight.....

but i'll make a promise here..i'll do my best in my study..i'll do this for my mom especially n to my family and most importantly to myself..and to my Lord God...

O&G posting will be hard n challenging..but i'll deal with it with an open heart and mind...i'll have a better control of myself, of my emotion and mind...