SHAKEN
where are you??
hmm..lately kinda addicted to this song..well, i heard it for d 1st time long time ago but just lately realize how nice this song is!!
if i were to meet someone....well..let it be a surprise!
LIFE IS FULL OF SURPRISES!!!
Michael Bublé - Haven't Met You Yet
are u still out there? how can i reach you~~?
I GUESS IT'S OVER.....
A LOVE FOOL
Venus girl: Can i ask u something? what if u want something so badly but u can't have it? wat will u do? (oh boy...i want u so much but u r so dummy....can't u really read me??)
Mars boy: TQ venus girl..i've been through such thing too..n its hard to explain in word, girl...i dono..why?
Venus girl: (TQ?? what the hell is that TQ...do u od know i'm planning to give up on u?) Nothing..just asking opinion..i want something that i'll never get forever...but nvr mind..i'm very optimistic..(NO!! i'm not..i won't let u go if i can do that..but..i can't..)...wat wif that tq..y thank me?
Mars boy: Girl..i tell u the moment u hurt and cry is so great...i know bcos i felt it too so many time...
Venus girl: (u wan't me to cry bcos u??) Ya...i'd been through it too..
It's a story of a girl who fall in love with a boy who can't understand...in other word..he's a dummy. But the truth is love is a stupid thing. Love drives people crazy, make people happy, laugh, jump in joy, cry, hurt, vomit, constipated, headache, brain-ache, n even some stupid person commit suicide bcos of love. Love makes a heart thumping and puffing..but sometime love make it stopped. L.O.V.E indeed... a great power that can control people's mind. People forget who they are as love make them blind..but through it all..Love is still beautiful. I wonder what will happen next in this story..I do want the girl to live happily with the boy forever..but some part of me really into that girl's feeling that the gap between them is so great and it seems like it's impossible to be together. They are made from different species (well..of cos..1 from mars n d other from venus..they r alien wat!!).. kidding!! They r human being...They just don't understand each other...they are now friend n i know they don't want to destroy the friendship just bcos of stupid feeling..(i dono if it is so actually.I hope it's true that they both want to preserve that friendship..just like what it is now)....
P/S:야...넌 나쁜남자 야...사랑애....
NEW LIFE...
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| Anencephaly Neonate |
내 어마, 아빠, 동생이...사랑해요...<3
TIME GOES BY TOO FAST....
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| jln2 cari makan in Pasar Gantung |
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| my youngest sister... |
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| oh ya...last 13th Sept was my 3rd sister's 17th bithday..Happy Birthday Miming~ |
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| her cake...simple but so yummy...i love it... |
it's been a long time.......
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| d very first time in OT |
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| rumate @ coursemate; nurul |
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| studying?? hmm~~ |
ASK, SEEK, KNOCK...
today is d 2nd Sunday i've been here in sandakan...n i dono where's d church to go..so i've been thinking wat would be for the coming 27 Sunday...huhuhu??
a reminder to myself..
the Bible says...
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."
Matthew 7;7-8.
this song keep playing in my head n i'd really like to share His love through this song
Terkadang kita merasa tak ada jalan terbuka
Tak ada lagi waktu terlambat sudah
Tuhan tak pernah berdusta
Dia slalu pegang janjiNya
Bagi orang percaya mukjizat nyata
Dia mengerti, Dia peduli
Persoalan yang sedang terjadi
Dia mengerti, Dia peduli
Persoalaan yang kita alami
Namun satu yang Dia pinta
Agar kita percaya
Sampai Mukjizat menjadi nyata
Dear Lord....
Here i am, oh Lord. i need Your guidance and Your love. For me without You presence, is nothing. I need to be and have to stay strong everyday in Your presence for days without you is meaningless...Praise to You Lord, my Saviour..amen.
For tomorrow to come, I leave my all in Your hand. Jesus Lead The Way.
H.O.P.E
I a.m B.A.D!!
for 10000000......th time...i act like a damn-ass fool!!
Guardian angle: rose...how many times i hv to tell u??!! control urself!! open ur heart, ur ear & use ur brain when u're angry!! dont just act like a damn-ass...acting like a fool!!
Rose: i think i left my brain somewhere....i cant find it.
Guardian angle: WTF?? then go n hang urself....
Rose: most of d time i wonder if u really a guardian angle!! wat r u really?
of coz!! everything we planned b4...was just a dream..but wake up! this IS life...prepare for the worst all d time n dis time is d best example of how worst thing could go wrong uncontrollably. maybe this is how we'll learn bout life..life IS unexpected..life IS full of surprises. sometimes life is happy n sometime life is hell (like now). BUT!! i believe there's something bigger n extravaganza await us in our way ahead.
....so my lovely friends, alynn, edith, nurul, siti and chalen...let us continue this way wif opened heart and mind..we should believe that this suffering will end wif happiness dat we cant never imagine how great it may be. it just needs a little faith n patient. let us HOPE..we'll be better in time.
My apology....
to all my bestest friends...
_i'm sorry for being mad n acted like a totally-damn-ass-fool.
_i'm sorry that we can't be housemates. i hope we'll be someday.
_i'm sorry we can't cook together but i hope we can eat together always.
_i'm sorry if in the future we'll not be together always bcos our postings r different.
_I'M SORRY....for d wrong things i've done.
My appreciation....
_to GOD...for giving me chance to experience this life.. Lord Father n Jesus, guide me to Your way, to Your Truth. Thank You LORD for Your Everlasting LOVE. Show me how to be strong and be faithful and be thankful for these are your loves poured on me.
_to my parents n family...i will be fine..don't worry for u all r my strength.
_to all my friends...i love u all..this is just temporary..it'll end soon. let's focus on our postings.
_to nurul..i'm not worried because i still have a friend like u really close to me.
_to the world..I'm not suffering..i'm stronger & tougher more than u can ever imagine!!
that's all for now..& hello world! I WILL SURVIVE!!
love,
~rose~
ONCE YOU STARTED..IT WILL BE EASIER...
ONCE YOU STARTED..IT WILL BE EASIER...
huuhhhh.....*sigh*....it's very hard to make the first step..hard...as hard as rock..as hard as diamond!! But..is diamond hard? ok..make it simple..it's hard to start but once it started, once i put my heart on it...everything comes smoothly..naturally!! HUHU...if there's a key to start d engine every time i want to make a start..kan best?!! But! If that happen then i'll be to most uncivilized person in the whole universe! U damn rose! be more enthusiastic in things u do!! See..ur PuPuK report finished od..u just need to be more determined n yeah...enjoy it..it can be fun if you see it through a different lens, different perception.
ONE more thing...why it's hard to keep the stamina on top level while it still in the middle of battlefield??
B'COS...u dont put your whole heart on it, Rose.... U know..i think everything in this world should be done sincerely so that the things u do be more valuable n u'll appreciate it more.
last day in kota kinabalu.....
today..friday 9th July...is the last day in here, kk before moving to sandakan tomorrow..huuh..so many thing to do la mo berpindah-randah ni....send car for shipping..packing things up..ambik rice cooker dari makcik gumuk..i think i'd given her much chance to use my rice cooker freely..it almost a year!! kalu btagar suda..sy suru dia ganti.. haha..xpa nurul tlg ambik utk sy ble? i'm sick of her od, yesterday she spited right to my face just because i wore sluar pindik..hehe..wat? just wanna be on-fashion-track ba. not me alone..edith oso! hm..just remember, too many things la happened yesterday. i call it "the lost day". u have no idea how we sesat in inanam in the morning just to find d perodua service centre..then i d afternoon..me n leena sesat lg just to find d place to send our car for shipping..inanam the cursed road..haha..da la too many cars on d road..i'm sick of the honks blown for me n my jaybumie..i know la we're hot but no need to emphasize it..
ok..i wanna talk bout yesterday more...after we sent our car for service (we were waiting like hell there..it took very looonnggg!!)..we promised kak ar to go to 1B for another shopping shot bcos kak ar not satisfied wif d wat she oredi have now..hahaha..no la..just joking. but the prob is d time was so limited as we need to send the car by 3pm later. so i was kinda act irritably and irrationally(?) telling that we need to hurry up bcause i haven't packed my stuffs n bla bla bla... then i realize may be i was too harsh n i feel like kak ar was trsinggung (kot? muka dia masam nak mampus!)..my bad! that's me..saying without thinking!! I guess to many people hurt bcos of this bad habit of mine...alynn_bcos i left the keys in my room n i bluntly told her that's her fault cos i was distracted by her sms...actually i'm d 1 at fault, i hv concentration problem(?)..no i'm not!!..i'm sorry buddies...u can call me a bad gurl..i am bad. Anyway...back to the story..soon after that i saw adila n d gang in 1B oso..so i felt a bit relieved..nani was still there so no need to worry to much bout d afternun nnt.. sorry kak ar.. but honestly..u talk too much and it annoys me sometimes..shut up a bit!
ok...we'll be there in sandakan until january next year.. it will be very long b4 we going back to kk... i feel sad actually..so sad..last wednesday when i went back to kk from home in kudat..i cried alone in the car...so sad to leave my family..it's farther from kudat to sandakan than kudat-kk...T_T..omma..appa..nae dongsaeng...i'll be missing u all ssooo mucchhh!!!
another one...mr. 재. (another jay ok..not my car)...i'll be missing dat person too. T_T. d last time i met dat person was more than 2 months ago..i miss dat person oredi..huhuhu..will there be chance to meet him again.?? only God knows. T_T...ok..enuf bout that person.
hm...today's plan...hand in Pupuk report..n joli!!haha...wanna watch movie n makan n all dat we can do...wish us luck n prosperity(?)...till den..see ya!
p/s;
edit_blanja pizza
nurul_blanja wayang
alynn_blanja kbox
me_enjoy life...
Blue Featuring Elton John - Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest...
IGNORANCE!!!!
i'm not sure how many times i do mistakes and make you suffer. I'm sorry Bummie...i let ur window open and let u shiver in the rain...I'm sorry... i really regret my ignorance...T_T...
i have this song for you...i'm sorry...
what??
안녕....try to make another post..hm..wonder to what extend this blogging thing can influence me..could it be as bad as my fwens whose so into this, writing from am to pm (esp Nurul??)..hehe...for a beginner..i'm not dat bad rite? i can write...yeah...!
SO..wat to talk about...?? wat happen recently..? no!! b4 dat, wat i haven't do yet..
PUPUK REPORT!!!
Guardian angle: rose...U REALLY WANNA DIE OR WHAT??!!!
Rose: i'm too lazy to write la...
Guardian angle: u know wat kind of human ur supervisor is, rite? so..do it now or u're dead meat!!
Rose: neh..araso!! jeeezzz!! r u really a guardian angle or what?
hm...now..what happen recently..? nothing much..just the things dat happen to normal person. there r happiness, sadness, anger, heartbreak, confusion, hunger, craving, visiting toilet, facebooking(b00rriiinngggg~~..), youtubing, stalking someone(?), studying sometime(LOL)...bla bla bla.....
1. happiness.....
hm..wat so happy about life? Life IS full of Happiness but sometime i forgot that happiness should come with thankfulness. be thankful when happiness visit bcos sooner or later it will go away then come again in unexpected time n situation. so rose..learn to be thankful in every happiness for it is a countless blessing from Him. _be thankful wen u got JayBumie, that's his name..ur as-white-as-jaypark new car from papa.. _be thankful that u r still in this medicine course wen u r not-so-good.. _be thankful that u have amazing ppl around u, big-big family, mama, papa, sisters & bro, understanding friends n future bf(???, is there any?) .....i'm tearing while writing this..i am thankful..ok?
yeah...that's him..my JayBumie, my car..2. sadness & heartbreak....
u know what....it's heartbreaking to pretend that i'm cool when i'm at the edge of d grand canyon and about to fall if i fail to hold back. I cant even say about the heartbreak i'm having now...hHuuHHH!!! it's heavy!! only God knows...but...pls remember..even in trouble or when thing does go ur way..be THANKFUL!
3. confusion, excessive food swallowing, all the boring-like-hell things...bla bla bla.....
huhuhuhuhu~~~....too much feelings to feel la....come on~...use ur BRAIN rose!! Lose some kilos..cut some carbs...go flirting~(?)...go shopping..no! JPA blum masuk! jgn suka2 ati kasi bazir duit bapak! ok la ba.....if still confused, lets try this thing...take a saw n make a transverse cut on the forehead..take out the brain..soak it for sometime in a warm water..clean it with soap but dun use bleach, leave it moist before putting it back into the skull...100% guarantee!!
ok enuf..enuf..enuf od..lets make thing simple....study, do pupuk report, eat, rest, sleep, go to toilet wen it's time, enjoy life.
..love & respect!!
p/s:
to my friends..alynn, edith, nurul-the-blogger, chalen, d two guys in the awkward-group(? is it? r we awkward?),who n who n who...i'm not that bad @ blogging rite? haha~dun be shy...follow me la...i dun bite..indeed..i'm freshee..pls be willing to teach me to write amazingly(?)..hahaha...i think i'm cool enuf oredi...haha~
[M/V] 2AM_죽어도 못보내
This is the mv by 2AM, 죽어도 못보내 (chugoedo mobonae) a.k.a Can't Let You Go Even If You Die.
The mood in this MV is so great and i can really feel the sadness...O.O..T_T...tears are falling....
i'd like to share this song's lyric....oso include d translation...sob..sob...
2AM – 죽어도 못 보내 (I can’t Let You Go even if I Die) Lyric
어려도 아픈 건 똑같아
세상을 잘 모른다고
아픈걸 모르진 않아
괜찮아 질 거라고 왜 거짓말을 해
이렇게 아픈 가슴이 어떻게 쉽게 낫겠어
너 없이 어떻게 살겠어 그래서 난
죽어도 못 보내
내가 어떻게 널 보내
가려거든 떠나려거든
내 가슴 고쳐내
아프지 않게 나
살아갈 수 라도 있게
안 된다면 어차피 못살 거
죽어도 못 보내
아무리 니가 날 밀쳐도
끝까지 붙잡을 거야
어디도 가지 못하게
정말 갈 거라면 거짓말을 해
내일 다시 만나자고
웃으면서 보자고
헤어지잔 말은 농담이라고
아니면 난
죽어도 못 보내
내가 어떻게 널 보내
가려거든 떠나려거든
내 가슴 고쳐내
아프지 않게 나
살아갈 수 라도 있게
안 된다면 어차피 못살 거
죽어도 못 보내
그 많은 시간을 함께 겪었는데
이제와 어떻게 혼자 살란 거야
그렇겐 못해 난 못해
죽어도 못 보내…
정말로 못 보내
내가 어떻게 널 보내
가려거든 떠나려거든
내 가슴 고쳐내
아프지 않게 나
살아갈 수 라도 있게
안 된다면 어차피 못살 거
죽어도 못 보내
*Even if I die, I can’t let you go*
Even though I’m young, the pain is the same
Just because I don’t know the world very well
Doesn’t mean that I don’t know pain
Why do you lie, saying it’ll be okay?
How will my heart that hurts this much
Be healed so easily?
How will I live without you?
That’s why I
Can’t let you go, even if I die
How am I suppose to let you go?
Whether you go or leave, fix my heart
If you can’t fix it so that I won’t be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn’t be able to live anyway
I can’t let you go, even if I die
No matter how much you push me away
I’ll hold onto you until the end
So that you won’t be able to go anywhere
If you’re really going to leave, then lie
That we should meet again tomorrow
That we should meet as we smile
If breaking up wasn’t a joke, then I
Can’t let you go, even if I die
How am I suppose to let you go?
Whether you go or leave, fix my heart
If you can’t fix it so that I won’t be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn’t be able to live anyway
I can’t let you go, even if I die
We went through so much time together
How are you telling me to live by myself now?
I can’t do that, I can’t
I can’t let you go, even if I die
I really can’t let you go
How am I suppose to let you go?
I can’t let you go
Whether you go or leave, fix my heart
If you can’t fix it so that I won’t be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn’t be able to live anyway
I can’t let you go, even if I die
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